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Everyone at work knows about my disorder. It’s not something I hide. It’s not something I am ashamed of. It’s also not something I brag about and wear with pride, but if they ask questions I acknowledge that yes I take medicine and I have bipolar disorder. I am made differently. 

The chemicals in my brain are not balanced like yours so I need medicine to keep the levels balanced and on most days they work very well. 

It’s not something I am ashamed of. It’s a part of a disorder I have and I try my hardest to make it look like it’s no big deal to have bipolar disorder. I am just as normal as anyone else when I am on my meds. 

We have this illness but we should not allow it to control our lives. We need to take control of it. You can be fully functioning when you have the right doctors, therapy and support system. 

It first starts by admitting you have a problem, then seeking help, then staying compliant with the help you are given. 

I am so unashamed of having bipolar disorder because it’s not something I have control of having or not having. Also, because I have control of my disorder by doing everything in my power to manage it. 

Take the wheel and take control. You have the power to make this life anything you want it to be but it first starts with admitting you have a problem and seeking help. Once you take control life can be beautiful. 
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