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Dreams


We used to be kids in the backseat wasting time
talking about high hopes and day dreams
never thought love
never thought life could take us far
in what we believed

This is a lyric from one of Mat Kearney songs and it really resonates with me. I am literally chasing my dreams right now being a mental health advocate. I have always dreamed big dreams and big things would happen, I never dreamed what they would be. I never had vision.

Now I have a goal. That goal is to provide hope for you all. One way I will do that is by sharing pieces of myself and my story. Another way I will do that is providing strategies to cope. I will also do that by showing fragments of resilience and hope and courage to go out and be bold and share your own story with the world.

I am so stepping out of my comfort zone, and you are stepping with me. I can see how many people view my blog, and I am so excited to see you guys following me on this journey.

I am keeping calm and trusting in God, but I am so excited to see all of this unfold.

Today I am going makeupless because of all the encouragement I got from going authentic last night.

https://drive.google.com/uc?export=view&id=15XVKmY76XeKGfW33TkooskNSU2DQEI8C

Thank you for that.

I hope to inspire you with a blog post later this evening when I get inspired to write again.

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