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Cubed

I’m not feeling intensely tonight so I have nothing profound to offer you. I wasn’t stuck in my head today. Isn’t that crazy? I don’t want this to turn into a journal where I just blog about what I did during the day, but when your day is filled with activities it takes you out of your own head and that’s a good place to be.

Today I painted a cube. And it challenged me. 
https://drive.google.com/uc?export=view&id=1nJK9uM2UVgWQghRMvy3QCeix_PfYXMoa

We should do things that make us lose our patience and challenges us. We shouldn’t strive to be mediocre. We should attempt to do things that test our abilities. I have zero patience and this really made me frustrated and I had to rise to the occasion. That is how and when we grow. 

This is a 9 month course so I will definitely learn something from it whether it be how to paint or how to be patient. 
https://drive.google.com/uc?export=view&id=1RcIzxvsuDed4aBEqug5rnDHOijJQDPG_https://drive.google.com/uc?export=view&id=1xsct41jc_8Ye-USNUfYUBWUV6lJD09Ui

Patience is the theme tonight. Living with a mental illness, I don’t know if you guys go through this but I certainly do. I lack patience. If I want something I want it right now. I don’t wait for things, I am a go getter and I make it happen. 

Sometimes our timing and Gods timing is two different things and we have to consider that. What we might think is right for us is not necessarily right for us right now. Or ever. You have to remember God is sovereign. Let him take the wheel. 

Sometimes what I want isn’t necessarily what God has planned for my life at this time. I have to take a good hard look and trust in God that everything happens for a reason. 

It is really hard at times to believe that everything happens for a reason. Who wants to get divorced after 8 months of marriage? It’s so easy to be angry about that. But then, you see the fruits it has produced because I chose to believe in Gods plan for my life and I can’t help but believe that He has an even bigger purpose set out for me. 

This all starts with patience. Yes patience. And a painting. Of a box. Inside a box. 

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