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How can you smile in the face of adversity? When something that you put hope in literally falls like a rock on your head, how do you put a smile on and cope with it and go about your day?

First, you count your blessings and give praise to God. He gives life, He gives love, He brings light to the darkness. 


Second, you believe that God is sovereign and He has a plan for your life. He has a destiny for you. He created you for a purpose and He will use you. 

Third, you take a deep breath and you put a smile on your face and you fake it until you make it. Give yourself the proper amount of time necessary to vent and sulk, but don’t stay stuck there. 

It is necessary to give yourself the proper amount of time to allow yourself to feel, but at some point you need to pick up the pieces and keep moving along. The world keeps on turning regardless of a broken heart. 

Having a mental illness makes it a lot harder to deal with these emotions, especially having bipolar disorder. It is because we feel things deeply. We feel things at an intensity that is almost unbearable at times. And when the lows go low they go really low. 

It’s important to have a safety net to fall on to. To have a set of friends to lean on and lean on hard. It’s important that you can count on these friends and it’s important that you can share your burdens with them to lighten the load. (Remember it works both ways) 

It is also important to continue to take care of yourself when the lows get low. Don’t let yourself go. Don’t allow a rock falling on your head knock you down. Get back up and fight. Fight for your life. This is your life and you are responsible for it.
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Don’t accept defeat. Today I sulked for a good 6 hours. Then I got up, I got dressed and I went and spent the day with my family.
 
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There is no room in my heart for bitterness and anger. There is no room in my heart for resentment. I am letting go and letting God. 

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