Today was a hard day. It was the last major holiday I celebrated as an official single woman. And I didn’t break down into tears until I started writing this post. I made it through the day.
I fb celebrated my happiness for Vday
It was a genuine smile. I was lit up with joy. Bittersweet joy. And now here I am bawling my eyes out.
This song is on repeat in the background and although it’s a song about togetherness and being committed to each other, I take it in solitude and standing on my own two feet in solidarity with self love. When it says you and I remain the same- that is me and myself.
I am stronger today than I ever have been in my life. I don’t ever want to lose that and I don’t ever want that to be taken away from me. I’ve worked so hard for where I’m at and I have so much potential for where I am headed.
Today I cried.
I had my friends to lean on. And I did the thing every single “single” girl does on Valentine’s Day that doesn’t have a date
Kaitlyn cooked the best steaks for me and Nick.
And I had the sweetest little valentines. Stella and Reese.
Today was definitely emotional for me. It was the end of an era. I am totally exaggerating. But it was a huge step. Although my ex and I have totally moved our separate ways and remain friends - it’s still a stone to be stepped on in the path of grieving the loss of a loved one.
I know what true love felt like and I have no doubt I will feel it again. That is the power of resilience. Falling down and getting back up - until you’re strong enough that you build a house where the bones are good and it doesn’t fall down.
So yes this song is so cliché but it holds so much significance in my life.
And I’m pretty sure I just wrote a critical analysis of a song like I was taught in college for fun... this is my life... this is Valentine’s Day. Happy Valentine’s Day 🥰
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